Posts from April 2011

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To get from point A to point B…

by Rebecca

It’s a very satisfying thing to find someone who could (and initially does) prove to be a valuable resource. I take research very seriously. It’s important to me that I get the facts straight, that I get pertinent information clear in my head. Fact checking is a huge part of my research. Yes, I’m a […]

Call me if you need to…

by Rebecca

She calls me, later than expected, and within seconds, it’s obvious she is extremely frustrated and aggravated. She has spent the last four days with her mother, who is deeply grieving the loss of her husband, and who had chosen to go somewhere that re-awakened hugely painful memories of the times spent at this very […]

To have and to hold.

by Rebecca

I go up to the room at the top of the house, as I often do, to have a smoke. The window there looks out onto a park where, more often than not, there are children of varying ages playing, their mothers look on, or chat with other mothers, or couples lounge, apart or together, […]

To be so lucky…

by Rebecca

He’s been gone for such a short time now. I miss him. God, how I miss him. I think about the things I’d like to talk to him about. How I’d like to tell him about all the good things that are currently happening in my life. How I know he’d be so happy, so proud. […]

There will always be more.

by Rebecca

It’s a startling thing, to receive something you have long anticipated, yet never really expected. I received my publishing contract today. For my first novel. A piece of work written, roughly, over the course of 10 years, though granted not full time. Life gets in the way. I started the novel in the summer of […]

The sun rises and sets…

by Rebecca

I have seen many sunrises and sunsets. I make it a point of doing so. If I am not someplace where I can view either easily, I have made a point of going to somewhere I can do so. To see it. To experience it. To feel it.This…habit of mine, if you will, applies to […]

Growth vs Need

by Rebecca

I didn’t know I needed instant gratification. That’s not something I ever really paid attention to. The need for instant gratification. The need to put something out there, for someone, and get back what I needed, emotionally, in return, almost immediately. I’d never known that about myself. Until I started playing music. Being a dj, […]

Here be Dragons…

by Rebecca

I have a vast imagination. I admire others who do, as well. I have always been one of those people who are often lost in thought, staring out the window, or off into some distant space, when I should be doing something (supposedly) important and/or constructive. I have always been a daydreamer. I still am. My […]

Choose as you will

by Rebecca

I want to talk about choice. About how the choices we make are ours, and how those choices affect us, as individuals. Not how they (may, or may not) affect others. But how they affect us. Each of us. Separately. The other night, in a conversation, I stated how I was feeling rather overwhelmed, how I’d […]

Let’s be clear…

by Rebecca

I find myself in an odd quandary. It started off innocently at first, the attraction. The fact that, sure, it was there, initially. The attraction. And I acted on it. Sure, it was strong, and I’m a reactive person, and then she shut me down. Hard. It kind of shocked me. How she stated flatly […]